I was going to leave it till the New Year to start the blog but I’m quite excited, so I thought I’d do an initial post to test the waters.
I have always had an interest in fashion but have always let it slip to the back of my mind because of the mentality that couldn’t possibly wear certain things because of my size. It took me a while to realise that there a certain things I could wear because of my size!
Recently due to other plus size bloggers coming up and the fashion industry finally taking an interested in plus sized women, my interest has grown that much more.
For such a long time , I always felt too large to wear fashionable things and I also felt that I didn’t want to draw my attention to myself with some of the clothes or make up I would put on in fear of people judging me. This had become my mentality for so long: be quiet, smile and try and blend in as much as possible. I even used to go as far as not having my friends dress to outrageously around me as I didn’t want any attention focused on me because of my weight, I wanted to be invisible.
On a more serious note, I was always told by boyfriends, friends and even family that I would look so much prettier if I lost weight. This really damaged my confidence and my self-esteem on so many levels that I didn’t quite like being in the lime light or drawing attention to myself in anyway and it is only of recent that I have realised the extent of their words and the damage it has caused in my life. (I will touch on this later in another post)
Over the years I have tried to lose weight and have been very unsuccessful to say in the least. I think this is because I was always trying to do it for other people who thought it was best for me but not me. I am getting to a stage in life where I have grown to appreciate my curves and my fat (yes I think they are two different things, I will address this later).
I would always spend hours looking at clothes that I would wear when I was finally skinny or make up that would better on my face when it was much slimmer. Am now in my later twenties and have been waiting for a chance to do all this things and I have decided the right time is now… I will look as fabulous as I can no matter what weigh.
Starting this blog, I’m hoping will be able to build my confidence to wear what I want to wear and be in the knowledge that it is OK for me to stand out and when people look at me they could be admiring me and not just having negative intent.
Anyway on to lighter topics, there a few reasons I am starting this blog.
- To hold myself accountable to things I always say I’ll do and never get round to doing them
- To meet like minded women (and men !) who are interested in the same things as me
- To show my love for fashion and make-up mainly (I do have loads of other interests!)
- To identify with other plus size woman out there and let the whole word know it’s OK to be Fatsy (Fat, Classy and Sassy). #Fatsy
- To talk about food, I love food… I love cooking and more importantly I love eating it!
- To talk about whatever I choose… After all it is my blog 🙂
I guess this is just a first post to let you guys all know a little bit about me.
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